Down ..... T______T

I don't know what should I do now ...
I feel so down =[
Sometimes I feel lifeless ><
Why my life is so boring ?
Why I can't fill up my schedule with some things that can cheer me up ?
Why are you don't want to fill up my dream ?
Why she can then I can't ?
Why just a little thing you also can't let ?
I don't know why I just can't talk to you patiently ...
When I see your face I will think about something that make me unhappy ><
That is why I ignore you everytime 
Don't know start from when I can't talk to you like ago
I think our relationship will become worse and worse
I don't know what to say and what to do 
God can you save me ?
I have been crazy for few days
being annoyed by all these stupid stuffs 
Why my life can't be as perfect as others ?
Why some people's life so happy 
but why my life is such that sucks ?
Can you answer me?
WHY ? WHY ? AND WHY ?
I tell myself if you can fill up that two things 
I will change myself
I will try to talk patiently to you
although I feel unhappy
But if you just cannot fill up them
I don't know what will I do 
I am already a crazy people
I can do what ever I feel
Please la~
just two things maybe you can save me 
from this annoying world
My holiday plan is spoiled
I am wasting time in these few days
everyday I am sitting day with a bad mood
GOD Please 
Save me for these time can ?
The six I am miss you
I just hope that can see you now
I want to tell everything to you
I need you to cheer me up
# Again ~ You can't understand my world 
So sorry about that 
I hope that next post will be something make me happy
Can anyone cheer me up ?
I really need it #